these tiring weeks.
everything is so uncontrollable.
i don't know why.
this life has been tougher than what i've always thought.
it shouldn't be this way.

i'm tired of complaining.
because everything that happens is a result of my action.
i fail in handling such mixed-emotions.
and being an unprofessional really brings me down.

recently, i've been so negative.
i'm easily depressed by anything.
and always feel scared of everything.
i've never been this fragile.
so easily touched by a nonsense.
this is so not me.
because i really am not a moody person.
but lately i've transformed into one.
being so emotional is never in my list.
what changes me,
is obviously not you.



before i get this wide smile back,
i need a long rest.
bye everyone.

based on the course outlines, sem 2 is so going to be hectic. believe me. but everytime i say hectic, i would do nothing. HAHAHA..

for these past years, procrastination has always been my habit. i'm so used to it that i couldn't start doing any task given until few days left to the deadline. so as the study thing, always keep waiting until the eleventh hour. i would have new resolutions every end of the semester. they would be, no more procrastinations, no more playing around, and such things. however, things would be the same again and again. yes, that's so me.

today, still in the first week of the sem, i have procrastinated again. maybe it's my fate to be having lecturers with ambitious talkings and the dedicated ones, since i'm always like this. i wish i could change for the better, at least i could finish that piles of this week's works before next week comes to its end.


bonne chance!!




p/s: i'm so going to get myself a ticket for transformers. everyone has watched the movie ay?

Bulan rejab muncul lagi. Banyak kelebihan bulan rejab ni. Ni saya share apa yang saya baca di buletin di friendster.


1. Barang siapa yang berpuasa 1 hari dalam bulan ini dengan ikhlas, maka pasti ia mendapat keredhaan yang besar dari ALLAH swt.

2. Dan barang siapa berpuasa pada tanggal 27 Rejab /Isra Mi'raj (Isnin, 20 Julai 2009) akan mendapat pahala seperti 5 tahun berpuasa.

3. Barang siapa yang berpuasa 2 hari di bulan Rejab akan mendapat kemuliaan di sisi ALLAH swt.

4. Barang siapa yang berpuasa 3 hari iaitu pada tanggal 1, 2, dan 3 Rejab (24, 25, 26 Jun 2009) maka ALLAH swt akan memberikan pahala seperti 900 tahun berpuasa dan menyelamatkannya dari bahaya dunia dan seksa akhirat.

5. Barang siapa berpuasa 5 hari dalam bulan ini, insyaallah permintaannya akan dimakbulkan Allah swt..InsyaAllah.

6. Barang siapa berpuasa 7 hari dalam bulan ini, maka ditutupkan 7 pintu neraka Jahanam dan barang siapa berpuasa delapan hari maka akan dibukakan 8 pintu syurga.

7. Barang siapa berpuasa 15 hari dalam bulan ini, maka ALLAH swt akan mengampuni dosa-dosanya yang telah lalu dan menggantikan kesemua kejahatannya dengan kebaikan, dan barang siapa yang menambah (hari-hari puasa) maka ALLAH swt akan menambahkan pahalanya."

Sabda Rasulullah saw lagi :

"Pada malam Mi'raj, saya melihat sebuah sungai yang airnya lebih manis dari madu, lebih sejuk dari air batu dan lebih harum dari minyak wangi, lalu saya bertanya pada Jibril a.s "Wahai Jibril untuk siapakah sungai ini?" Maka berkata Jibrilb a.s, "Ya Muhammad sungai ini adalah untuk orang yang membaca selawat untuk engkau dibulan Rejab ini."

Dalam sebuah riwayat Tsauban bercerita :

"Ketika kami berjalan bersama-sama Rasulullah saw ke sebuah kubur, lalu Rasulullah saw berhenti dan baginda menangis dengan amat sedih, kemudian beliau berdoa kepada ALLAH swt. Lalu saya bertanya kepada baginda "Ya Rasulullah, mengapakah engkau menangis?" Lalu baginda bersabda "Wahai Tsauban, mereka itu sedang diseksa dalam kuburnya dan saya berdoa kepada ALLAH swt, lalu ALLAH swt meringankan atas mereka."

Sabda baginda lagi "Wahai Tsauban, kalaulah sekiranya mereka ini mahu berpuasa satu hari dan beribadah satu malam saja di bulan Rejab nescaya mereka tidak akan disiksa di dalam kubur."

Tsauban bertanya "Ya Rasulullah, apakah hanya berpuasa satu hari dan beribadah satu malam dalam bulan Rejab sudah dapat mengelakkan dari seksa kubur?"

Sabda Rasulullah SAW, "Wahai Tsauban, demi ALLAH Zat yang telah mengutus saya sebagai nabi, tiada seorang muslim lelaki dan perempuan yang berpuasa satu hari dan mengerjakan solat malam sekali dalam bulan Rejab dengan niat kerana ALLAH swt, kecuali ALLAH swt mencatatkan baginya seperti berpuasa satu tahun dan mengerjakan solat malam satu tahun."


SELAMAT BERAMAL!~

hutang-hutang tag. banyak lagi kot. halal je la ek. huhu
banyak & panjang.
ni aku jawab yang latest je dari tina, shiela & syahmi.



*************************************

this is from kuceng sepi

1. Are you taller than your sister?
yes.

2.Are you an emotional person?
not really.

3.Has anyone ever spread a rumor about you?
i can't remember any.

4.When's the last time you saw your mom?
last saturday.

5.Do you think you are a good person?
lets ask my friends. what do you all think of me?

6.What woke you up this morning?
my phone's alarm.

7.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
yes. got one class only! freedom!

8.Do you believe that you can change for someone?
yes i do.

9.Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
i don't know.

10.When was the last time you cried really hard?
can't recall.

11.Does your head hurt right now?
not at all.

12.Do you want to be in a relationship?
yes, only when i found him.

13.What is the last movie that you watched?
a night at the museum.

14.What were the two last shows you watched?
what shows? american next top model?

15.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
rarely.

16.What does the front of your shirt say?
ladylike.

17.Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
my roommate.

18.What are you listening to?
mila - gila.

19.Are there people that you wished never existed?
the zionis

20.Who's someone funny that you know?
apih the siput babi.

21.What is your plan for tomorrow?
'usha'ing during assembly. hahahaha

22.Who was the last person to tell you they love you?
mom.

23.Looking forward to do something this weekend?
i want to watch transformers. it reminds me of someone in my past.

24.Do u like it when people smoke around u?
no.

25.In the past week have you cried?
no.

26.Are you mean?
up to the situations i'm in.

27.Where's the last place you went?
ahsan sani.

28.Have you ever been awake for more than 2 nights straight?
yes.

29.What were you doing at ten last night?
watching movies.

30.Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
of course not.

31.Have you ever thought about converting your religion?
never will.

32.Is there anyone in your house right now that isn't family?
no.

33. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
the zionis

34.Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
if not i'll be summoned.

35.Name one thing you worry about running out of.
money money money.

36.Do you crack your knuckles?
yes.

37.What songs make you feel like crying?
gaza song.

38.Friends you would like to tag?
syahmi & farah iliyana & suzy.

*********************************

this is from shiela

1) "5" nama timangan anda

• ada (ipsah)
  
• atul (mrsm & kmpp)
  
• ruby (skgc)
  
• kakak (family)
  
• rabiatul (formal sikit utk situasi tertentu)
  

2) "5" sifat or tabiat buruk

• tidur selagi mampu & tak kena sound
  
• makan banyak
  
• selalu beli benda-benda yang tak patut beli. ikut nafsu semata-mata
  
• malas
• selalu sangat gelak, & gelak pulak nak kuat-kuat
  

3) "5" makanan favourite

• nasi pattaya. macam dah takde menu lain
  
• ulam + sambal belacan
  
• pajeri nanas
• spaghetti roommate masak
  
• buah naga. hehe. sedapnyaa!
  

4) "5" subjek paling best

• english
• maths. modern maths je. add maths haram tak best langsung.
  
• sejarah
  
• sains komputer.
  
• BM. lama tak polish
  

5) "5" bende wajib dlm purse..

• ic
• lesen
  
• kad atm
  
• cash money
  
• brooches

6) "5" topik yg biase dibual bersame pasangan or teman

• hot guys! peewitt
  
• budak sombong.
• lecturer yang best & tak best
  
• kelas yang bosan
  
• muhasabah diri. ehemmm
  

7) "5" mangsa tag..

• ieha
  
• farah
• wan zaleha
  
• ky
• mes
  

********************************

this is from syahmi

1. What is the best part in your life?
i couldnt make it in SPM. my hope for overseas was gone then. IPSAH brightened my day when i got an offer for NZ. di sebalik kesedihan datangnya kegembiraan. wahwah. semoga dpt jejak kaki kt sana. amiiin.

2. Have you experienced any surgery before?
yes. an eye surgery. just a minor one.

3. Do you think you are special?
i believe that i'm always special to my mom.

4. Describe your special boy/girl friend.
there's a special someone whom i hardly can get rid of. i dont know whether we are friends or not. it's very complicated. it doesn't seem like we are meant for each other. just trying to let go of him. sounds so phathetic ay?

5. What's the best thing you had done today?
i didn't fall asleep during the lessons. hehe

6. Who are your idols?
mom. plus some of my english teachers and lecturers. they're awesome!

7. Describe your life now.
sem 2 has started and my life seems quite hectic since then. my class is great & i'm glad we are not being reshuffled. tonnes of works are to be done. but so far, i'm satisfied with my life now. except for the fact that mr. basil is teaching me!! huhuhu. chill adawiah chill

8. List down your facebook, friendster, myspace, skype & ym.
sos_mayonis@yahoo.com for all.

9. what do you want to say to the person who has tagged you if you are going to die tomorrow?
syahmi, dont miss me. hehehe ;)

END!~ :)

assalamualaikum.

kembalinya saya di sini adalah untuk memeriahkan arena blogging ini. huhu. lama tak praktis guna BM baku. cuti tinggal lagi DUA hari. dua hari je lagi. mcm tak percaya pun ye jugak.

ehemmm korang pernah main golf tak? teringin tak nak main?

hari isnin lepas, aku, wan & zack pergi try main dekat taiping. best jugak. mula-mula cemas tapi ended up ok gak. cehceh bangga pulak. maklum la kan, 1st timer. mula-mula ingat mahal tapi rupa-rupanya murah sangat.
50 biji bola = rm6
100 biji bola = rm10
sewa kayu golf tu pulak rm5

murah kan?

reti atau tak reti, tu belakang kira. hentam je pukul. kalau bertuah sikit macam kami, ada tenaga pengajar free. kalau bertuah lagi, ada BONUS, pekerja kacak bagi pinjam kayu free. hehehe ;P

jom tengok model kita, wan zaleha beraksi. bertuah sebab takde orang waktu ni, boleh snap dari depan, macam jakun sikit.

1. pegang stick betul2.
ada cara-cara tertentu nak pegang, bak kata tenaga pengajar.
kami pakai bantai je sebenarnya. hihi.
(jgn lupa senyum dekat kamera)

2. angkat stick dan HAYUUUUUN kuat-kuat!!!!

3. dah selesai. usha jauh mana bola korang terbang.
kitorang sampai 50m je. tengok penanda yang paling jauh sampai 180m.
kena praktis lagi lepas ni.


..................................................................................................



zack fokus. tengah aim yang paling jauh agaknya.


mana bola aku agaknya ye?
laa bola dekat depan je. keh3~